17 years ago today as I left our home to move into college, tears ran down my face at the fear of the unknown. My brother hugged me and told me to be happy, that life was an adventure, and then told me I needed to loosen up. Little did I know that hours later, I would be living the worst day of my life. I not only lost my brother that day but lost my most trusted friend, the person that could make me laugh and smile at any time no matter what happened and the person that always had faith in me, even if he had to be brutally honest. Looking back today, I miss him so much and wish every day that he was here on earth with me, to share in the person that thanks to him and my parents I have become, to watch his nieces and nephew grow up and to continue to give me the advice that I need. Most of all, I wish he could smile at me and let me know everything is going to be ok. I feel blessed to have known him for 18 years of my life and am so thankful that GOD gave him to me as my brother. God has an awesome plan for each of us and how I wish I could have changed his plan for Scott but know that Scott's 20 years on this earth were filled with joy and laughter and impacted everyone that he knew in such profound ways that I will never fully understand. He continues to look after all of us after all these years and is a constant part of my life and who I am. Thanks to him I did loosen up and learn that life is short and truly an adventure. I will always adore him for his wisdom and kindness and so many other things. I look forward to the day that I will be able to see that smile again in Heaven!
“Precious in the sight of the LORD is the death of his saints.” (Psalms 116:15)
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